"Often times I feel trapped inside myself, 
unable to express to those around me 
what I need 
what I want 
and what is going on inside. 
It can feel like a prison, oh so lonely. 
This haunting deep inner knowing that no one can truly know the real me. 
Only if they could shrink themselves small and nestle themselves into the folds of my brain. 
Just sit and witness what is going on inside this mind of mine. 
Help me interpret the chaos. 
Tell me that you understand so that I know that I'm no longer alone. 
Tell me that this is all making sense to you, too. 
Cast your words as spells of reassurance to continue on as me, the real me. 
Let me know that the deeper I go will only lead me to the place I've been wandering towards for so long. 
I am searching for something in external sources and when I don't find it a lonely pit illuminates inside. Maybe what I don't realize is that what I'm looking for is me. 
I want to find ways to express myself fully. 
More searching 
More wandering is to be done. 
I've still got a long ways to go." 

-KN