Diving deep into my subconscious to provide clarity, comfort, and community for those committed to their own self discovery
I wince as I notice you delegate your responsibility of repair to time. Your disconnected mindset still believes that time heals all wounds and that no further effort is required to mend what you’ve done to me. Disillusionment paints the world I have started to build around you. Hangs picture frames on the walls and…
Pints of mead fill my belly with the rays of the sun. Golden and warm. I have no choice but to share the light beaming from my innards with those around me. I think about the bees and how long it took them to gather what they’ve given me, or rather what I’ve taken. I…
The people in my life sink like ink deep into my skin. I’m never the same after an interaction, no matter how small and perceived insignificant. You can see the impact so superficially on me. No point in trying to mask the marks. Some marks are sharp and aggressive while others you can tell take…
My vagina is not your amphitheater. Not a place to echo your selfish desires into. Expecting nothing more but your own voice returned back, confirming that your needs are the only priority here. My thighs are not the covers to a book in your personal library. You don’t own the rights to spread them wide…
"Often times I feel trapped inside myself, unable to express to those around me what I need what I want and what is going on inside. It can feel like a prison, oh so lonely. This haunting deep inner knowing that no one can truly know the real me. Only if they could shrink themselves small and nestle themselves into the folds of my brain. Just sit and witness what is going on inside this mind of mine. Help me interpret the chaos. Tell me that you understand so that I know that I'm no longer alone. Tell me that this is all making sense to you, too. Cast your words as spells of reassurance to continue on as me, the real me. Let me know that the deeper I go will only lead me to the place I've been wandering towards for so long. I am searching for something in external sources and when I don't find it a lonely pit illuminates inside. Maybe what I don't realize is that what I'm looking for is me. I want to find ways to express myself fully. More searching More wandering is to be done. I've still got a long ways to go." -KN