You make me want to write sad love songs
And lay underneath the weight of the rain.
Tears falling as I am reminded by the depth of your meeting me at.
How is it that I’m already mourning the loss of you?
Every first touch your fingers take on my longing layers feels like the very last one I’ll get.
And I cling to every second I’m given.
You snuck up on me like daylight savings does to each one of us every year.
I hardly knew you were just around the corner until I woke up one morning and my days gleamed brighter than they have all season.
It seems to me you were surprised by the synchronicity of our communion, too.
I can tell by the way your excited energy fills the air all around us.
Seemingly eager to catch up for all the lost time we could have had together.
If only I had met you sooner.
I know that most things don’t last forever,
Change the only thing most of us can count on in this life.
I am grieving all that you give me in real time,
Because I know that it won’t last forever.
But I stay grateful for you because in our brief and fleeting moments together you give me an eternity that my whole body has ached for.
You and I live entire lifetimes in the few short hours each of us can spare in our busy schedules.
Both of us showing up to our chance meeting energetically chaotic and slightly disheveled….
I will take all the time that you give me with rose hues painted on my cheeks and presence hiding right behind my eyes
Because you make me cherish the here and the now.
A surprise plot twist for this life long dissasocist.
Your presence is a gift to me.
One that’ll seep deep into my healing heart and modify my mind long after you have become simply
A memory I indulge in reminiscence…
-KN
